Seal it with a 

"PERFECT KISS"

(on cheeks!)

haizz.. i already feel the "MAGIC"

Last Nov. 25 2010 guess what!?

He suddenly kiss me on my cheeks!!!!!!!!!!!!

grabe na speech less ako dun aahh

that was my first kiss ever..

sa loob ng 9 months na relationship namen..

kc daw he has a big respect on me..

he doesn't want to things na hindi ko gusto..

more kisses 

till next time..!

 

                                      Revive, Rebirth CHANGE...

            A new and updated version of me......

..it's me again..gotta share a big, big, plans and feelings of mine...

in life there comes the time that you'll gonna face a big disaster

it's up to you on how you gonna deal with it and face it 

if you will hide, run away or face it..... 

but problem comes not to bring burdens in your life 

but to to make you a stronger and better person...

in my case, i can say that i'm a total freak 

why?.. kase kung kailan halos sirang sira 

ang lahat ng meron ako tsaka ko lng narealize na mali 

na pala ang gnagawa ko....

..my best friends and i are in a great argue and they all against me...

even my classmate whom i used to call my ''soul sister"....

it's been 2 days now since our argue starts...

..but it's killing me not mind them.. girlfriends ko cla eehh...

..but then 1:30 am Nov. 20 2010 I realized na mas mkakabuti sakin

to stay away from them...

not because they are bad influence to me but because my memories with them

reminds me of how bad i am..

kc mas naprioritize ko cla kesa sa family ko at pti si  God nalimutan ko ng dalawin...

tsaka naging dependent di ako skanila,, i need to grow old... and stop being a little girl..

i really need to stay away from them though it's painful changing in silent way is the mos effective way

pra maayos ko ung srili ko...

..bayie blogspot...

part 2 na lng later....

bizooo bizooo

                                           "IDENTITY CRISIS"
...have you already experience this..?
..sometimes it's hard to know you're self...
it's really hard to find you're own identity right? and sometimes it hurts you so much right seeing you're self suffer from this?


..just wanna share you something 
..i experienced this for almost two years whatta a long range right?
sad but it's true it's started way back on my first year high school 
my friends and school mates always bully me always left me out sometimes i even imitate their styles and their traits the way they act sadly nothing happens... then i just stop from doing that i ask myself why but i can't still find the answer geeeezzzzzzz
..it sucks...  i always cry because i feel different!!
...what's wrong with me?
..am i really different?


till....

i found my best friends who always cheer me up who accept me from who i am.. i found a guy who loves me more than i love myself..


then i realized....
you don't have to change you're self just to please them to like you
sometimes you are confuse because you don't where to go 
just follow your heart and it will take you to the right path to the right people....
..just be yourself if you're confuse, God will take to the right way..








bayie!
till next time...







 

              "What real beauty Means"
..haizz inspired nnman ako.. I"ve got inspired by a tearful crazy inspiring movie 200 pound beauty... Though i'm not as fat as her i can still relate in her situation
like her i can do anything in the name of love.. hahahah.. how crazy right?
but despite of sacrifices and risk i'm ready to take there's a untypical handsome guy who fell in love with a super bizaare girl like me... 


despite of being innocent as he call it "sweet innocent" he's still up with me..
though i'm so untypical and crazy at times...

as what my title is.. i realized that true beauty is not base in having a pretty face, having a soft gentle skin, being popular nor being a star look a like...  yes typically speaking these are the qualities of being a beautiful girl...but for me
accepting yourself and being true to yourself is what real beauty means..
being positive, a big respect and love to your self is the key in having the best things in life... key in having an everlasting beauty.. appreciating little things instead of asking and demanding big things..and lastly being contented with the things you have in life...

maybe some of you might think that what I realized after watching that movie is out from nowhere but if you just watch it you'll understand it..
just look at the deeper side of the movie you'll surely understand me..


napaiyak pa nga ako ng movie na ito ehh..it's so amazing how hanna and zanjoe discover their love for each other despite of a big circumstances
it's amazing because mas minahal pa ni zanjoe  ang fat version ni hanna keysa sa  almost perfect version nui hanna which is jenny...


see.. some people doesn't care if you are beautiful  or not
kasi minahal because of what you are....
di nman kelangan na almost perfect ang beauty mo diba?
aanhin pa yun kung ung attitude nman right?
near to perfection is sometimes near to drowning
kakaisip na maganda ka nilulubog ka na ng sariling mong paniniwala
nilulubog ka na ng pride mo...
and di mo na lng namamalyan na wla na plng natira sayo right..


hahaha geezzz..


..that's all for now 
..it's getting late...






good night..!








 

..after the stressful weeks i promise to myself that i will blog all the stories i wrote and stories i'm still writing,,


geezzz...

...hope there's someone who can pamper me out 
...out of stressssss!

                                            ''Pretenders"
   ...it's hard to trust the pretenders...!!
          ..haizz People who pretends are desperate liers isn't it true?
                    there are times that i'm a pretender,,..i claim i am sometimes,,
just wanna share i have a friend who always pretends, lie, and sometimes even sayings half truths
..geez and I'M SICK OF IT....! whenever she's chatting with us, having a deep conversation or reasoning at the times we have some arguments, she obviously pretending...!!!!!


..i always wonder why people pretends...they're just fooling their selves..  right..?
..bakit di na lng nla pkita ang tunay nilang personality...
..geez nako nman why am i spending my time blogging a dagger people like them ,,,,

   






..being true to yourself is being true to everyone,,.










..gotta go!..










have a nice day ahead...!!!!

  "Feed up of always been rejected"

                    " Tired of always waiting"
haizzz... nakakapagod.. nakakasawa.. 
but i'm afraid to lose him...
am i being rigid?
or just afraid to face the reality?
but i don't know what's the reality behind anything
is it hope that push me to still hold on
or love that gives me the strength to take risk
even if it's to risky and
it hurts me a lot...!







...haiizzz 
stress at haggard ka na nga wla png npala
akala ko yung taong atat kong mkitA ang syang
magpapasaya at makaka relief ng stress ko..




kainis ngpapalala pa ng iniisip ko..!!!
hey! am i not important to you?!!!!










geeeezzzzzzzzz!!!!